MIKE DREYDEN Photographed by Walt Cessna NYC 1-10

A CRY FOR A SMILE text & photos by Walt Cessna NYC 1-10

once in a while

a cry for a smile


now and then

I beg for a friend


but you and me

too much history

the best thing can only be

that you actually keep running after me


so once in a while

a cry for a smile


for i wouldn’t dare

trade one of these days

cause you’ve been gone before

and i dread that malaise


i need your soothing, subtle and fierce effect on me

not forever, eternally


and now and then

as i’ve come to know you

more than a friend

some kind of warrior


that’s the biggest surprise

no more surprises, no more lies


so once in a while

a cry for a smile


allow me to crack your untouchable shell

why do you always feel like drowning in your own personal hell


if i make it seem easy

it’s only cause you look at everything so hard

but when i get you to smile

it simply breaks my heart



so once in while

a cry for a smile


i’ll sacrafice me

to be your’s superficially


to be your correct in effect and fierce loving daddy

your all around best friend

I’ll suck your fingertips and lick your tears

and stay with you till the end


so if you can’t do it for you

and still refuse to do it for me

then at least give me one more chance

even if i try unsuccessfully


so once in a while

before we must part

a cry for a smile

a cry caught in my heart


i shall love you always

even though we knew it was never meant to be

because i’ve been loving you

while you’ve been killing me


but i’ll always remember the springtime

and i’ll always despise the fall

knowing that you’d leave me

when first i got your call


and once in a while

i’ll cry for your smile

SUNDROID YOUTH photographs by Walt Cessna NYC 1-10

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